Today as I watched the market go up and down, as I listened to market projections and more bail-out programs and dire predictions for the coming months, I felt panic rise within me. I am naturally an optimist. Things don’t get me down, I can see ahead to the happy places and if I can’t, I fake it. Today it just seem so overwhelming. Even though the market is going to close in the positive today, who knows what tomorrow is going to bring!
What if this gets as bad as some people say it will? Are we really headed for another Great Depression? And what does this mean for me and my family? We don’t have enough food stored or money saved. We have way too much debt, our house isn’t paid for nor our land big enough to sustain us.
Since I was a little girl I have been taught about food storage and keeping out of debt. I haven’t listened to this council until the last few years, and now we are left lacking.
I am working my best to live a better life, to live a more sustainable life, but I feel as if I am a lap or two behind in a huge race and I just can’t catch up.
I guess the only thing I can do is do my best from now on. We are coming up with a plan and we are changing the way we live our lives, drastically. At least drastically from where we were. We are buying less, using less, saving more and praying that it will be enough.
I know this may sound really strange to some people and that I shouldn’t worry so much, but I feel something pressing on me, there is a low level of dread that sits in the back of my heart. I feel so unprepared.
So what do I do?
Just my best and hope that The Lord does the rest.
