Men and Women

“We both need what is our birthright, and unisexuality is nobody’s birthright-it is a mistaken notion derived from feminism’s desire for equality. Equality is of value, not of substance. Water and food are of equal value for survival, yet they are entirely different substances. Masculinity and femininity are of equal value–let us learn to respect and embrace the uniqueness of each.”

Dr. Laura Schlessinger

Jars of Wildflowers

I was very privileged to know my Great-grandma very well. She died when I was well into my twenties, shortly after I had my 4th daughter.I have so many memories of Grandma Ranck.

My Great-grandparents owned a home that had been renovated into a duplex. They lived there in the winter time, during the summer they spent their time at a ranch they owned in Wyoming, called the By-Belle Ranch. I loved living next door to them. Grandma was forever crocheting something and Grandpa spent his time watching games shows, like “The Price is Right”. There was always a small fire going in the fireplace and a kettle of water sitting on top. She had a special drawer full of paper and coloring books, an old cookie tin served as a holder for all sorts of crayons. For a time while we lived there our TV was broken, so Grandma and Grandpa let us sneak over on Saturday mornings and watch cartoons. My sister and I would quietly, with the volume turned very low watch Saturday morning cartoons and color.

Most of my memories of Great-Grandma Ranck had to do with the Ranch. We would visit at least once, sometimes twice during the summer. The ranch was a child’s dream; pastures and forests full of possibilities. Many long days were spent playing all sorts of childhood games in the wilds of the ranch. We would hunt frogs, pick flowers, pretend we were running away, and getting kidnapped by Indians.

Grandma was always there, cooking, cleaning up a meal or visiting while crocheting. She could cook for an army without even batting an eye. In the kitchen there was a long table one side lined with chairs for the adult, the other side had a long bench where the kids would just pack in. Grandpa sat at the head of the table, and Grandma, right next to him. After dinner, the children would usually scatter, while she and the ladies cleaned up, I can still see her now washing dishes by hand (until she got a dishwasher) at the kitchen sink. At night the floor of the living room was covered with sleeping bags, Grandma always left a light on in the kitchen, so we wouldn’t be scared and could find our way to the bathroom in the middle of the night. Grandma was always happy to see us kids, she would smile, kiss one cheek while patting the other. She was always interested in what we were doing.


Grandma stayed behind a lot. One of the highlights of a ranch visit would be a long horseback ride. All the men would catch the horses and line them up along hitching posts, the kids would hang around brushing the horses while the men saddled up. Grandma and a few ladies would always stay behind to listen for the sleeping babies. Grandma would stand on the front porch and wave to us as we left.

When it came time to go home Grandma would always kiss and pat our cheeks goodbye, then sit on the front porch and wave as the car would drive down the lane.

Of all my memories of Grandma, there is one I love the most. I guess it isn’t really one single memory; it is a whole group of memories. As a little girl I loved to pick the wild flowers. All of us little girls did. We would gather fist-fulls of flowers; sago lilies, Indian paint brush, yarrow and various others that I don’t have names for. We would bring big handfuls to Grandma; she would take every fist-full and smell it, then place them in a big mason jar and set the wildflowers on a self in the kitchen. Every single flower was handled this way, sometimes there would be many jars of flowers on the shelf, but there was always room for one more. I love thinking of those mason jars of flowers, she made us feel so special and she loved every single flower that every little girl brought to her.

Whenever my little girls bring me flowers, even dandelions, they always get a little cup of water and a special place on my window seal…and I think of Great-grandma Rank.

It has been several years since Grandma passed. The ranch is now owned by my uncle and his family; they love it like a second home. They built a cabin up the lane from the ranch house, and on the window seal my Aunt Beki always has little jars of wild flowers. I think of Grandma, and I smile.

Springtime on the Homestead

Spring had sprung in my little suburban homestead.
We have five new baby bunnies.

Here they are, about three days old…so cute!

Their names are:

Stew, Roast, Fried, BBQ and Stir Fry.


Then Tuesday I got a call from a neighbor who has a friend who bought colored chicks at a pet store because they thought it would be cute for Easter (grrrrrr). Well, the lady who bought them did want them any more (surprise), they were noisy and stinky (really? chickens?) and she wanted to know if I wanted them. So me, never one to pass up free live stock, said I would love to have them. So here they are my freaky, neon chicks…I can’t wait for their real feathers to grow in.

There you have it, Springtime on the Homestead.

(warning…I am climbing on my soap box)
I think it is totally irresponsible for stores to sell dyed chicks at Easter time. People buy them on a whim with no thought as to the fact that chicks grow into chickens, who cluck and poop. Then after 2 weeks they get tired of them….what next?…hmmm didn’t think of that…DID YA!
(ok done now…have a nice day!)

The Motions

I feel like the past few months I have just been going through the motions of life. The work has been getting done, schedules followed, groceries bought and consumed, and laundry washed and worn. There has been little beauty and richness that has enfolded my life. I have been plodding along day to day; my soul feels flat and my step heavy.

I don’t like times like this. I like to be able to pause a moment and enjoy how the sunlight is falling on the onion I am chopping for dinner, to feel the breeze brush my face, to smile at chubby arms wrapped around my legs, and then picking up the owner of said chubby arms and kiss his chubby cheeks.

Going through the motions of life is not necessarily a bad thing. There are times that going through the motions is much preferable to falling apart. Life happens and sometimes the best we can do is focus on getting through the day to day in a reasonable manner.

My problem all started with my husband’s fall back in December. For several weeks life was about getting through. It was all about getting my chores and duties done, while taking on my husband’s, all the while caring for him. He was in constant pain for 4 months; it was all he could do to go to his physical therapy, work, then home again, where he would lay on the couch exhausted and in pain. Life for him was rounds of pain medications, doctor’s visits, physical therapy, and ice packs. All of the extras fell to me, not only the physical things he would do (taking care of the trash for example) but the mental extra were mine to take care of, such as disciplining children, schoolwork and dealing with children who were having trouble, he just couldn’t deal with it after a long day of work and pain.


I don’t want to sound like I am complaining, or making myself out to be some hero. I am doing neither. Dadzoo and I are a team; I pick up where he leaves off, when one of us can’t shoulder our usual burdens the other takes over.

On top of all this, I was sick. Not the lay in bed all day kind of sick. The exhausting, bone tired, muscle sore kind of sick. It wasn’t because of all the extras I was taking on, it was more than that, and it left me, at the end of the day a tired mess.

All of this combined made the “motions of life” necessary.

Now, four months after Dadzoo fall, life is getting easier. Dadzoo is healing wonderfully and is mostly out of pain, his physical therapy is finished and his foot surgery is considered a success. He is back to his normal self and I am so happy! After being diagnosed with an underactive thyroid I have been working with a holistic practitioner and I can actually go through the day without needing a 2 hour nap. I don’t lay in bed at nights with my muscles aching anymore. I feel so good and so full of life!

Now is the time to shake off the “motions of life” and enjoy living. Today my daughter and I snuggled on the couch while she read to me. My baby boy greeted me with a “love” this morning. As Dadzoo hugged and kissed me goodbye this morning I took and moment to enjoy his wonderful clean smell. This morning I took the time to explain to my five year old why she shouldn’t hit her brother back when he hits her first instead of yelling, I watched while she hugged him, and he hugged her back. I closed my eyes for a few minutes and listened to my 9 year old practice piano, something she enjoys. I kissed the freckles on my 7 years old nose and she left for school.

All these small, simple beautiful moments add up to make a sweet life, one that fills my heart and makes me so thankful for who I am and what I have.

It is going to be a Good Day

It is going to be a good day today. The sun is shining, the windows are open, the beautiful spring air is pouring into the house.

I am moving through the rhythm of my day peacefully.

There are two loads of laundry drying on the line.

The morning session of homeschool complete, my oldest and youngest daughters are playing together outside in the sunshine.

One load of dishes in the dishwasher, another rinsed and sitting on the counter waiting for their turn (didn’t do dishes yesterday)

My bed is waiting to be made and the floors need vacuuming.

There are 5 new additions to my little backyard barnyard.

I enjoy the simplicity of my life.